LauraLynn Jansen

Resolve 2 Evolve (part II)

(part II)

In my own journal I answered several questions prompted by the Yoga International article entitled Inspired Intention.

What is something I really want in my life?
Note if there are one or several things you desire. What is there at the root of each one? Do they connect in some way to a core sense of self you want to keep more alive in your life?

What is the most important goal in my life right now?
For me this was an easy one and has a twofold answer. First is to get Catalyst Youth Leadership Program more out into the world. Second is finding an agent for my book or finding a way to get it published so it may inspire others who may face the same challenges I did. I envision this the launching pad for my yearning to support others on a bigger scale through speaking and interacting with larger groups.

What should I be devoting my energy and resources to?
(What stand out as the biggest opportunity or responsibility in your life?)

What is my biggest dream for myself and my life?
The follow up questions really nailed me:
Is there a dream so big, vision so bold for your life that you wonder if it is possible?
YES! YES! YES! I can honestly say this and don’t we all at some point have something like this in our life. Then we make a choice to pursue or not to pursue. In Yoga Sutra 2.18 the father of yogic philosophy, Patanjali, prompts us to engage our Ishvara, a state of consciousness enveloping limitless joy and freedom. In my life I have been given many of these type of moments on a grand scale. Each one leading me to great possibilities for how I can live my life fully engaged and connected to my divine purpose, something I take very seriously as someone who could have lost my life early on.

Is there a deeper longing that feels a bit risky to the conditioned mind, and makes you feel vulnerable, open, and tender?
My visions for finding new ways to support and facilitate a life of health and happiness for those engage me to work with them creates an onslaught of doubting voices. Not because I don’t think I can do it, instead I watch my conditioned, working class mind go, “Wait a minute, how do you think you can pull this off?”
Sometimes the slew of ideas, moving through my brain, feel so off the mark of where we are culturally at this point in time as a society. I second guess my intuition and it makes me feel very vulnerable. For example, the idea of developing myself to be an Integrative Health Coach (addressing all the pieces of a person came to me over 20 years ago as I lay in hospital bed after hospital bed) and now it is a pretty widely seen idea. My observations of the manifestation of my visions has taught me to take heed and use those individuals, who I know are open to my musings, and use them as my starting place. I encourage others to do the same. Find the people in your life who are there for you, really there for you, and ask them to be your true north.

I hope my self-disclosure of my internal work helps you consider focusing your life and charting your own course. My daily prompts from www.tut.com says it better than I can.
“Let the universe show you the way via your impulses and instincts that apper as you take inspired action. Don’t worry that your first steps seem silly or futile. And if you don’t know what to do, do anything! GO!”

Posted in Blog, Uncategorized on January 10, 2011.

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